I know exactly what you mean., Hellion. It's like the more I try to be normal the crazier I feel.( okay so maybe that wasn't exactly what you meant, but that's what happens to me! ) and I definitely hate going to that place because it is extremely overwhelming; it's like I'm losing control and watching myself from the inside out but not being able to escape.

Open Eyes, I do like the idea of trying to slow it up a bit, I tend to try to want to get everything done all at once. ( as far as the healing process goes, it's like I think that it has to be taken care of in a month or x number of sessions, or whatever)