i hate them ,the way they look at me is awful . i think i'm the only one who is bullied in school and that's sucks . they always say terrible things to me like ***** ,***** ,****ed ,dirty .i can't defend myself cause i have low self confidence and i feel like they're right and i deserve the way they treat me .the worst is that they re boys and i can't face them because i'm a girl and what a girl can do ??!!!
i'm so tired of guilt and shame , i did some stupid mistakes and i regret it so bad . i can''t accept the way i've become today .i'm so pathetic, helpless and ashamed .my study doesn't go well my attitude is so strange . iwish i could change what i ruined but i'm so weak . i feel like i'm the responsible for everything happening now . i feel like i let so many people play with me till they distroy me and make me a joke . i don't have anyone who can be by my side and get me through my upside down life .i wanna make up for the people i've hurted and make them happy again but i can't do that by my own .