The other day I met with a T to see about joining the group that she runs for survivors of csa. I knew she was going to ask me some about my history, and I thought I was prepared, but it has been so much harder on me then I thought it would be. I didn't even go into detail about anything, yet I'm feeling so weird and gross, and upset with myself for saying anything. When I've been in my room I keep hiding under my blanket. The first time I ever told anyone was about 8 months ago when I told my T, and I didn't have a reaction like this. It was difficult then, but I just don't get this gross feeling. Shouldn't have this time been easier?