I just recently had to be hospitalized because of my ED behaviors and I had such a low sodium level the Doctors told me that if I kept on doing what I was doing then my brain would swell and I would have seizures but they let me out after about a week and of course as soon as I got home the unbearable urges came back. I dont want to feel this way forever. I just want to be happy and ok again. I cant afford treatment so I'm kinda stuck. I dont know what to do. All I know is that I am really struggling right now.