I almost went to psych ward today. I have been there in the past, 3 years ago... the feeling u got nowhere to go... old traumas on the surface. i'd stay here but there are too much noises during the day in this apartment where i moved two months ago, those noises drive me crazy (renovation noises). I didn't go to psych ward tho, because all I need is a warm place where i could stay and someone who understands. i feel everything is so ugly here,
dirty and ugly and dark grey. and parents do want to help but all they can do is give me material support - it is important but certainly isn't a substitute. i feel i want to go far from my parents. they got me this apartment and i regret so much i ever came here. i regret everything i just wish there were a place to go. countryside would be the best, i so long for nature. i hate this city living in a plastic box. please if someone has any ideas where to go would appreciate. being in touch with parents makes me sick. i feel there' sso much lack of understanding...