Sorry I forgot to tell you that I did listen to your song and I realy liked it I just forget so many things at the moment Realy sorry about that.

About crying. I know this is going to sound like I'm completly insane but it does help! for me anyways. Realy I don't cry very often, but I know the urge to do it.
When I feel like I'm going to cry and my head hurts from the presure and breathing gets difficult I usually go for a walk, or a run. Even if it's in the middle of the night, and I find a place where noone ever comes, and then I scream and scream and scream until I cry from my throat hurting, and the cold and all the unfairness in the world and every bad thing. I know it sounds completely insane and like probably the worst way of getting the crying out, but just screaming actually does help getting some of all the feeling out and sometimes it just makes me cry and sometimes it makes me laugh at how ridiculous I'm being. In any case it tends to relieve the pressure.

Maybe it would help if you screamed too?