It's good to know that some people do not want to receive a compassionate response from another person. I can understand that if the reaction from the other person seems fake or insincere. But you're saying that even if that person has some true sensitivity to your pain, you still have a violent impulse?

Your preference, then, is that a feeling response not show up in others? You'd rather a non-response or a clinical response or an uncaring response? I believe the best relationships are those in which people can support each other emotionally. But, of course, I'm only speaking for myself. I see that for others, that does not describe the best kind of relationship. Interesting.

Sorry to learn that the question of your r/s with husband is popping up for you now.