Hi, Trace, welcome to PC (short for Psych Central).

At the ripe old age of 56 I've decided "immaturity" has nothing whatsoever to do with being a teenager and age and is nothing to be ashamed of. It's about making the best choices with the background we have and some choices don't work very well but hey, we've lived to this ripe old age/"survived" and that's something!

I just rewatched "Cast Away" http://www.amazon.com/Cast-Away-Wide...id=1160238193/ with Tom Hanks last night on the telly and was fascinated with his relationship while on the island 4 years alone with "Wilson" the volleyball he made into a "person." Very "immature" behavior but very necessary and it worked. Wilson did help him, even disappeared when it was time for him to be rescued so he could get back to "normal."

I'm glad you're struggling, are making the consciouis effort and working hard to get better. It will happen!