and seeing my regular so I can self-medicate. My md is very lenient and will let me take whatever I want to. My p-doc is way too conservative. I tell him all my problems and the only thing he does is increase the lexapro by 10mg each visit. I tell him the risperdal is making me lethargic and he still keeps me on it. I tell him i'm not stable enough and have mood swings and he won't put me on lithium. It's sickening to think If I would have been self-medicating then I would have been alot better months ago. I'm currently on 2mg risperdal, 400mg lamictal, and 40 mg lexapro. What I have in mind is dropping the risperdal, adding lithium, adding wellbutrin, and increasing the lexapro to 50mg