#$@#$%@!!!! I just lost my whole post and now I have to start over.

I was saying that I'm sitting at Starbucks with my mocha and my laptop ready to comfort and be comforted.

Weekends are really hard for me because I am so desperately alone, and it's just magnified when I've got a couple of days with nothing to do and nowhere to go and no friends to hook up with. I spend them with my laptop and my tv (and the jaunt to Starbucks if I can get myself out of the house). Desperately trying to distract myself enough to keep the dark thoughts at bay. The dark thoughts that I can't go into right now because I'm trying to avoid them.

So here I sit hoping that I will receive some comfort and company from the forum and that I will feel up to giving some as well. I'm going to post this on another forum, too, just to cover my bases.

Loves, everyone.