Hi, i'm 15, and i've been self harming for a couple of years now, on and off. About a month ago, i cut the word 'hope' into my uper arm. i though i had done it underneath, where it couldnt be seen but that was just the posistion i was in when i cut. Now i have a scar and the letters are so perfect that it is obviously not there by accident. I dont want to use creams or oils to get rid of my scars as they are part of me, and i dont care what anyone people think about self harmers - if they dont like it that i cut, i dont like them. But i am worried that people will see the word 'hope' and ask questions. Why did i cut that word? Why did you take the time and care to make a word rather tan the usual slashes across your arm? i feel weird and wrong. i dont know why i cut that word. it feels perverse. am i bad? Am i stupid? Weird? Crazy? Has anyone else cut words into themselves before or is it just me?