In the past I used to be very talkative and I talked very fast and on top of that very impulsive. I changed when I had to start taking antipsychotics, it seemed to slow that behavior down, though I felt less smart (I'm an high IQ person)

But now I'm on a new antipsychotic and now I'm acting like I did in the past again! My old personality is back but my talkativness and impulsiveness is driving people away from me.

I started seeing a CBT therapist and she wants me to control this behavior without medications, but I'm struggling and I sort of wish I was on one of my old medications or maybe even an ADHD med. But if I get treated I will probably even loose my normal speech pattern again and I won't be myself.

Second advice, I go nuts because there are two disorders that I am unsure about, ADHD and Asperger's. ADHD is an old dx of mine but now I know I have bipolar disorder, so did I really suffer from ADHD as a child? Should I find out? Is this the origin of some of my behaviors like impulsivness, talkativness and the reason I fidget sometimes?

Aspergers just drives me crazy, about half the doctors I asked said I don't have it but I have traits and half said I do have it but so mildly the other doctors are missing it. One doctor I have seen for a year in total told me he honestly doesn't know if I have this disorder, but at the same time the bipolar is severe and that is what I should be focusing on. But another doctor that seen a couple of my childhood psych reports feels that Asperger's was a major part of my childhood problems, but I improved a lot as an adult, so basically if I've improved should I even seek out if I have it or not.