I think I'm often moving in and out of a similar stage in my own therapy right now. It happened for me after T made many mistakes, then changed boundaries, ignored me when I needed to be heard, forgot me, and then told me many things I wasn't ready to hear. T made it clear about the ways that she doesn't and can't care for me. I wish things could be made better but I don't think there is a fix, not for me anyway. At least, it suddenly feels very unsafe to try to rely on a T, after previously missing out on so much, when a T can only do so much and only care so much. I too learned a lot from therapy. However, I used to tough it out alone and it worked for me. I'm trying to learn to stand on my own again now.

I do hope your T comes through for you as much as he can. It sounds like he's trying to step back because he thinks you're ready to work through more yourself, rather than from a lack of caring. Changes can trigger the really REALLY big feelings. I hope you're still able to get some support from him and I hope you have more and more of the good days and less of the bad ones.

Good luck with your book too!