I can relate to you. It is difficult to deal with emotions. I think that crying may actually help you. Although you may feel like you are suffering because you are crying, it may feel good to get some of your emotions out. Mood swings are not fun to deal with, and it is difficult to be around people while having mood swings, because you may be happy and cheery one minute, and then be angry and negative the next minute. I often wonder if people do not like me because of my mood swings, but it is so hard to control the mood swings. Anyway, I know how you feel, and I am here for you. Feel free to message me anytime, because I think that talking really does help.