I'm pretty sure I should give in and finally buy a one piece. I hate my body and although I'm a size 6/8 and petite, people I work wih and friends think I'm tiny, I just don't agree. I used I be a size 00, and was super skinny and I loved it- albeit bc I was starving myself and over exercising.

Now, I prepare for a trip to Florida next week and I need to get a suit. I have no desire to look for one or even think about what type I would buy. I am average but I feel huge. Idk if I should just bag the idea and not get one at all? But I also have a pool at my apt complex and I know last summer I never went bc I didn't have a suit I felt comfy in. Idk what to do. I feel horrible about myself.

The only thing that might make me feel remotely better is to drop 20 lbs which I def can't do before summer. I only weigh 120 as it is now and in order to do that in a healthy way would be about 1 lb, max, per week. Ugh, I'm really lost here. I just wanna feel comfortable in my own skin and get a hot little suit to boot! Is that too much to ask?