PAYNE1 is right, try to find some support (outside of us, because this is a pretty supportive community too ) for these issues because food issues can be pretty pervasive. I understand how you feel though; I'm an emotional eater and have had food issues and an eating disorder ever since I was very young. I'm at my heaviest right now and it's like I should be able to moderate my eating but the worse I feel about it the more I'm like "Eff it" and just keep eating to comfort myself. It's a vicious cycle that I'm working on (along with other issues) in therapy. I wish you the best.