Nudus, I'm sorry you've had such bad experiences with mental health professionals.
I know how hard it is to find just the right one for you. I believe it can happen. I finally found someone a year and a half ago, and we've done great work. After my move, now I'm still looking for one locally and it's very frustrating as I feel I need very specific things that many ts don't do.
Sorry to talk so much about me. About the restraining thing. Now I don't have schizophrenia, and have never been hospitalized. So maybe I don't know what I'm talking about. For me, when I've scratched myself (si) in front of my t, and she's held my hands to stop me it's gotten me outwardly showing more anger/agitation as the energy I wastrying to divert by hurting myself had to be expressed somehow, but on the other hand it was very comforting, as CE said it showed that she cared enough to look out for my safety when I was struggling with this.
I've never gotten angry enough (or maybe not let myself) to throw chairs. I'd imagine if I were in that state, I'd be extremely afraid after such an incident. I'd feel separate from myself, like I was another person which I do when I'm really angry. I think in a way, it might be comforting to be restrained, not tied up or given a shot (especially in the butt!) but to have my arms held or something, or to sit very close to a staff member and just have the freedom to cry or yell or hit a pillow and know that another person could witness this and was strong enough to contain it for me.
I have no idea how inpatient staff work or if this would be even possible. If it were just tying me up that would be really scary, and would make things worse. If I was really angry and couldn't calm down, I actually don't think I'd mind the shot if it would just make me sleepy and that's it.
Just my thoughts, like I said I could totally not know what I'm talking about.
Chopin, I wish there were mor MH professionals out there like yourself! Just totally curious, and you don't have to answer if you don't want to but why did your friend have to restrain you? Were you hurting yourself or something?
Anyway, Nudus, I hope you get out of the hospital soon and can somehow find a MH provider that works for you and that you can trust.
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