Glo123 -
When I am off floating in la la land and acting from the memory piece "Margo" I tend to get into troubles sometimes too. The way that I handle is recognizing when I know that I start feeling far away and floaty like. That right there is the first thing to when I start dissociating. When I start feeling floaty and far away ( Its kind of like being in a tunnel and looking through binocculars at the wrong end.) then I do a quick check in with myself to see what I am feeling if I am starting to feel mad I know for sure that if I continue to float down my tunnel and into la la land I have no control of what is going to happen because I have not acchieved the ability to be co conscious (aware) while the "margo" memories are replaying. So I use what control I do have in the tunnel of looking around and noticing things - furniture, objects, people, the conversation and looking for the reason I am starting to get mad. If I cant quickly locate that trigger (what is making me mad) I stop the situation by excusing myself to go to the bathroom. Once in the bathroom I get into a stall and put on my headphone and turn on my wakeman that has relaxing music or a relaxation visualization recording made by my therapist and I. I also push my feet against the floor and pay attention to trying to feel the pressure with my feet, touch the stall walls, toilet paper, my back pack and things in my backpack paying attention to the different textures, coldness and so on until I am fully aware again paying attention to what all of my 5 senses are telling me. Because I am fully aware again and not dissociated into my tunnel and or la la land then I can't as "Margo" get into trouble. Then I go on with my day. and do the same thing over again when I again start feeling floaty and far away.
Since you "now am starting to recognize at least two subprsnlty." and you know "of inappropriate behavior" you can now use grounding techniques to control your inappropriate behaviour by controling your dissociation reactions when in situations that make you feel like you want to get away and instead of mentally daydreaming (dissociating) yourself out of the situations that make you feel upset you can physically walk out of the situation by excusing yourself to the bathroom, "Ill call you later", "Lets make an appointment to talk about this later I am late for an appointment, to pick up the kids...." and so on.
also talk with your therapist and he/she will probably have more idea of how you can use grounding and relaxation techniques to prevent the acting out of memories that contain inappropiate behaviors.
you can find more about my experiences with having DID, my research about DID and my therapy experiences for my DID in my blog called - Me, Myself and I.
To get to the blogs click - Blogs - at the top of this page.
On the page that comes up along the left side you will see the words - get your own - click on that and you are now in the members blog area.
Then click on my blog name - Me myself and I - or my recent entry. Last nights entry is called Art Therapy.
Once in my blog if you don't see some blue links along the right side clicking on my letterhead will bring up my main blog page and the blue links.
Click on the link that says - blog index. This is a list of all my blog entries, so you can pick and choose which one you want to read. Some of my experiences may fit and help you and other stuff might not, feel free to take what you can use and pass on the rest, also feel free to print off things to take to your therapy professional so that that person can help you through my blog if needed and maybe add what you want to try to your therapy program.
Hang in there.
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