You say "deep question" ... So I'll be very honest, the meds weren't working for me. It's a very personal choice. I quit the lithium in November. I felt like I'd rather try to ride the swings than the side effects. I'm not interested at this time in trying more bp meds. It's different for everyone, and a personal choice. I have pdoc appt on Wednesday and not sure what I will tell her. I think everyone says to be totally honest with pdoc, but honestly I trust myself more.... Shrugs, that's where I'm at.