Wait!!!!!, hold on!!!! I am so not ready to be where you all are at. In my mind I can still pully 500 bales of hay to the loft at 7 months preg. In my mind I can still go through the house like a whirlwind and get a lot more accomplished in a short period then the average bear. In my mind I don't have to nap during or after a car ride, or after a brief social visit and car ride. I am having trouble with the acceptance part of this.

Undoing? I am always undoing damage that has caused me pain. But I feel the need to push push so far because otherwise I feel that I am a liar, insincere, complaining. It is so confusing.