I agree I moved back in way to soon, but how do you tell the ones you love the most that you are not ready to come home. I am not right in my feelings I have issues with what I have caused prior to all this,I can't forgive myself for what has happened,I am trying but yes I drink out of shame for what I did, facing them tears my heart up just the thought of all that happened I was thinking everything was perfect all the time,yes I got support from a friend that really helped me and made me realize what has happened.My wife told me she knows I love her but on same breath she said I know ur not in love with me,I would do anything to make her happy and complete but but right now I can't help no one I can't even help my self.I am going to try try to slow down an not drink well not binge drinking I have been doing that for a couple months now out of feeling like a failior as a father an also as a husband.I will take your advise to heart I will try my best thank you.