Adam K
My heart is there, you love your wife and I admire you for not cheating on her. Do you do things together, hiking or listening to music together? My husband is having an affair with a younger woman (He is almost 65/she is 39) I do my best to contribute however I have bipolar, depression, panic disorder and paranoia. He used to be supportive of me but now he tells me to find a boyfriend and other cruel things. I only wished he was as considerate and reflective as I do love him and want to stay married. My Psy Doc tells me to take more drugs.Maybe your wife has a mental Health issue that needs to be addressed. The desires that you speak of are human. you should be with someone that shows the compassion that you show and the love that you give should be returned. Mental abuse is just as bad as physical abuse if not worse. take care warm thoughts to you