I hope you got over the guilt. There was no reason for but there it is anyway
I'm sorry the dream didn't turn out well but I envy you the ability to resume dreams. I enjoy all my dreams, good or bad. They are so much more interesting than my life,
As for this dream mirroring your life... I'm sorry. It may mean something but to paraphrase Freud, I think that usually a dream is just a dream.
Wishing you better dreams Patty