It sucks because there is a power play. I remember talking to my T about this and talking about it in group therapy. It would be nice if it were equal power but it isn't usually with patient doctor relationships. They want your trust, and we all mostly know that trust is a two way street or should be.

My first pdoc was much more trusting and open, he had his desk facing and against the wall so that you could sit beside each other and have open communication and conversation. He wanted to get to know you an build a relationship. My other pdoc was very closed, not trusting, didn't listen and interesting he had his desk between him and the patient which seemed to close communication and solidify who was in authority. He did not want to get to know you or build trust. I think he assumed my trust to him should be a given and his trust of me was not important. Ahh sorry but that was something I really noticed between the two of them.

You have to do what feels right for you Blue and you know your pdoc and how she might respond. But I am sorry that you find yourself in that situation.