TW: Mention of sex

T and I had been talking about what the term "queer" means, since that is how I identify. So we were talking about it a little and she started saying something like "So I guess it can describe a whole spectrum of sexual preferences: gay, lesbian, bisexual, being into S&M..." And then I interrupted her and started talking about how the manager of the strip club I used to work at was really into S&M and every night out of the month we would have a BDSM night. I never participated and at first I was freaked out but then I kind of got used to seeing all the "activities."
So after I told my T this, she asked "Are you into S&M? Were you ever curious when you watched what was going on in the club?" And the thing is, I totally was! I have never tried it before, but I am really into the idea of being submissive and role-playing,etc. But I was WAY too embarrassed to admit this to her, even though she was being totally non-judgemental and told me "It's OK if you are, people have all kinds of different preferences." Like is she psychic??? But I still denied it.
Anyways, now I feel kind of guilty about lying to my T. I have never been dishonest with her before but that question caught me completely off guard and is something I would never have dreamt of discussing with T or having her ask about, even though we do talk about sex sometimes.
I am thinking about emailing her and telling her that yes, I am turned on by it, but I don't want to talk about it with her and am only telling her for the sake of being completely honest.

Sometimes I wish my T wasn't so wise/intuitive!!!!