Sending you very big hugs. I can not tell you how much seeing you suffer through all this just breaks my heart. I know how close you were in the good times. In fact, I feel like a real boob now because I know I helped encourage you to stick through things and being honest with T. OMG. If I had known how it all turned out, I would have told you to run for the hills.
Sending you tons of safe hugs!