Depression doesn't care if you come from a perfect family or one that is falling apart. There isn't always a reason for depression. Sometimes it is caused by an imbalance in brain chemicals.

Just because something sets you off easily doesn't mean you are weak. If I am driving, I know better than to turn on the radio, because if I do and a song that reminds me of something (which is most of them), I either get seriously depressed and spend hours driving aimlessly around, or have to use all my strength to keep myself from turning my car into a tree.

People have different triggers. The best thing that you can do for yourself and your family is seek help. There are several medications on the market now that can help you through the rough spots if you need it. Sometimes its just a matter of figuring out what is bothering you and no medications are needed. Because we are so good as a species as denial and hiding the things that hurt us most, both from others and ourselves, a second party is helpful. Let your family know that you need help and see if they can help you track down a good therapist. There are also therapists that help families of people who are suffering.

The last thing you need is to blame yourself or punish yourself by cutting. Cutting is a coping mechanism, just not a very good one. The sooner you learn what is bothering you underneath, the sooner you can develop a more appropriate coping mechanism. Its not easy, but in the long run, it will save you and your family a lot of pain.

Sam2