Thanks everyone for your comments, they all mean a lot to me. You guys on this forum are in fact the only people who truly understand me. I dont have to hide anything with you and you accept me and build me up and make me stronger for it. In real life people are stand offish about bipolar. The once popular girl in high school who everyone wanted to be is now being whispered about behind her back about how shes crazy and blah blah blah...who gives a **** right? life goes on and I still got the guy so all in all its not so bad right?