I'm so sorry for all you've gone through. It's too much like the past in some ways. This ending would shatter anyone who had had such an important relationship with their T, I think. No matter how good the lessons learned, to end such a precious relationship in this way is the most hideous thing.

I know how much T meant to you, and how much you always seemed to mean to him too, so this is really incomprehensible. It sounds like you fought for what was right for a very long time and it's ridiculous that you weren't believed. Someone obviously has major problems beyond what T has realised if it's gone on for this long and been taken this far. It should never have ruined your therapy and impacted your life in this way. Never.

I wonder if T is in shock if the evidence you shared with him is really clear and it's the first time he's seen it in quite that way. I know you can't just suddenly stop being sad about the ending and the fact that you were once so secure in the relationship that is now lost, but it doesn't sound like T is capable of coming through for you in any way right now.

I really think you need to discuss this with another really good T. I really think you need to be heard. If you can't stand the idea of the whole beginning again thing, after all this, how about a limited number of sessions with just the aim of saying it all and being validated and heard and understood? All the things you've fought so hard for.

I feel very angry, sad, upset, and frustrated that it's gone down like this. It is beyond unfair. It's been quite cruel. But we do hear you here. I think you can get through this! It is a nightmare but you're going to get through it, one day at a time.

I'm so sorry that you're so sad.