Hello helplesshopeless8! Welcome to PsychCentral!

I would like to know you are safe and will call crisis line or 911 if you are in an unsafe frame of mind. I feel you are worthy. I have to express that because you will understand as you read this post.

I am sorry you are having a frustrating experience. I know I am just an anonymous person typing out these words, but the members here at PC have helped me.

Like you, I would like a face to face discussion of what's bothering you. However, I have found people like myself(PC members) in similar circumstances, the details are different but the feelings are the same. These members have helped me a lot.

And I feel there are people here that I feel comfortable in expressing my feelings because they have made me feel connected to them. I hope you will be able to return here and feel supported.

I say this because I know what it feels like to be alone and unwanted.

These thoughts are just suggestions and my experience, take what you like and leave the rest behind.

Please take care. Update this post about how you are feeling when you can