I know exactly how you feel. There is never any reason to get out of bed in the morning, and you are wondering why you were here. I think that way all of the time. The only thing I can tell myself is that someday, I will find something that will make me happy, or I will find my purpose for being here. Someday you will find something that makes you happy, and that you can take pride in. I am not sure how to wake up and not feel so lost and lonely, and I do not know how to not feel so emotional, but I do know that it always helps to talk to someone. I know how upsetting life can be, but it will not always be upsetting. Try to keep your head up, and I am always here to talk if you need anything.