exactly! i see all the friend groups, couples, etc together and there i am...usually the only one who's alone. sitting, feeling uncomfortable that people are watching me, judging me negatively, laughing at me on the inside, talking about what a loser i am to their friends.

it just feels awkward being alone...i feel like i stand out...like im being watched and examined.

also, of course, it just hurts to not have anybody to talk to , to laugh with, to confide in.

i always go out hoping that someone friendly will come and say 'hi', but it never happens...and im too shy to initiate anything, so...((shrugs))