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Originally Posted by youwillrise
exactly! i see all the friend groups, couples, etc together and there i am...usually the only one who's alone. sitting, feeling uncomfortable that people are watching me, judging me negatively, laughing at me on the inside, talking about what a loser i am to their friends.
it just feels awkward being alone...i feel like i stand out...like im being watched and examined.
also, of course, it just hurts to not have anybody to talk to , to laugh with, to confide in.
i always go out hoping that someone friendly will come and say 'hi', but it never happens...and im too shy to initiate anything, so...((shrugs))
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They are SO not judging you...but I understand how you feel. I used to feel that people were judging me as well. The only way I feel that way now is if I go looking all crazy, which I used to do when I was in school and I had homework to do. I used to go in my yoga pants and a hoodie with my hair all up in a baseball cap and I felt like the girls who were dressed all cute with their makeup and hair done were judging me. I felt like I smelled or something. Now if I go out alone I try to make sure I am "done." Of course, I still go to the grocery store in my yoga pants. But I digress.
Anyway, I understand.