oh nightsky, i'm so sad to hear things are so painful for you right now. it will get easier in time even if that seems impossible to believe right now. i don't know any of the particulars so can't comment on that but i do know your connection with your T was never, ever fake. you and T did wonderful work together and nothing can take that away, not even a crappy ending. i think you know that too but are just feeling blindsided by the pain you are currently in.

it is going to take time for you to heal from all this, and you will heal from it, but i think you need to practice self-care at this time. if you can't stop yourself from reading this woman's blog or wherever you are getting info about what she is saying then please have your H puts some blocks on your computer and other devices so you can't receive this info. i think continuing to know what she is saying is just hurting you at this point. unfortunately, sometimes people do lie or misunderstand or are just plain in denial about things. because this has gone on for so long without any real resolution it is probably best to just walk away. you can't stop another from lying but you can determine how you will respond. i think it is great you have spoken your piece and stood up for yourself but now may be the time to just accept that T may never get it and to go on with your life as best you can despite what anyone says or thinks. no, it's not fair but continuing in this may not change anything and just further hurt you. i know you are feeling powerless and so triggered, but some things we just can't control and have to accept. you will get through this dear nightsky. you are in my prayers.