Ugh thanks for responding. I used I have one a free years back. But I can safely say I'm not engaging in those behaviors anymore but I do still have the thoughts. Idk if those ever go away. I thought about posting this in the eating disorder forum but idk if I qualify to do that, u know?

Good idea on the shorts over the suit. I have a two piece with boy shorts as the bottom half. I just hate those too!!! Ughh