I really resonate with what you wrote, HH8. I too feel I have no value because nobody places any value with me. I've lost all my friends. My family seems to have no interest in what really goes on in my life. My 3-1/2 year therapist, who was my only connection to the world, terminated me last month because I was too dependent. I have absolutely no faith or trust in human beings anymore. I can only speak freely on this forum because it's anonymous and I never will actually meet anyone in person. I don't know what's going to happen to me. I feel that it's something of a myth that one can have control over one's own life. S**t happens all the time. Admittedly, I hold an extremely negative view and most everybody disagrees with me. I could go on, but I feel my temperature rising and I don't want to feel this s**t.