I have no idea what happened but I've read some of your threads after you decided to come back. I admire you for your courage and strength. You worked so hard. I hope you take away from that relationship how much you grew and how committed you were to making things right again. I do remember that you've always had some of the best advice and lessons to share with others on this forum. I also hope you quickly find another therapist because this ending should not be allowed to derail all the tremendous growth you made and the journey that you need to continue to be the person you want to be.