Ms. Me, I'm glad you're seeking help and glad you're telling your story. Getting it out is important to healing. Whatever you choose, you can go at your own speed. It seems that nothing here requires a snap judgement. I know when I sink into an emotional low, I sometimes forget my values, or, feel as though I value all things equally. Be careful to respect yourself and keep consistent with your values. It can help prevent making choices that you regret.