I'm beating myself up this morning because I made a mistake at work. One of the functions of a group home manager is to ensure the home is completely staffed. When I agreed to take the position, I told my boss I didn't want to handle coverage because I take heavy duty meds to sleep. During the week, I have someone to do that. Every 7 weeks, I have to take a weekend on-call.

This morning I slept through a phone call from a staff calling out. I checked my phone when I woke up 2 hours later. I felt awful. I called the staff and asked if she called someone else. She had called the home and told her shift coordinator. I apologized profusely then called the home. The coordinator answered and told me not to worry about it; they were fine. I apologized profusely. I called my assistant who normally handles coverage and she found my profuse apology humorous, telling me it happens. I called my boss. He said this made him concerned. We needed to fix this. I got that. It just seems wispy-washy on his part; ie don't worry about it...now that it happened, let's worry about it.

I made a mistake. I'm harder on myself than anyone. I HATE I did this. I know it's my fault. I chose to stay up too late. I chose to drink too much caffeine. I accept my consequences. I feel like I failed my clients.

I'm going to go back to sleep now. At least I'm off today.