I haven't been dealing with my depression for a while. I stopped taking my medication a number of months ago - I discussed this with my doctor who advised me that he felt I could make the decision when I was ready. When it finally left my system, I felt the decision to stop was the correct one. My emotions felt like they were in check...I wasn't feeling imbalanced. Sure, I had off days, but I felt better.

Recent months have seen some challenges arise. Certain issues have resurfaced and new problems continue to plague me. But, for the most part, I have been successful at dealing with them and feeling okay about it.

Today, however, is a different story. In fact, this whole weekend has been more difficult than life has been for me in a long time. I suspect that's why I recently joined this site - because I could feel the challenges starting to become too much.

So far, I've met some really supportive people here. And that's great, but to be honest, no one really knows the whole story yet. Not even any therapists that I've been to. There is a good reason for that as well - I had two therapists in the span of two months before last summer...I live in a transient town, and both of those therapists moved out of the city during my treatment. It exhausted my ability to talk to anyone new.

Now that I'm here, I'm nervous to discuss everything that's causing my troubles. And today has just been a really bad day. I feel like I'm back at square one and I've made no progress. My emotions are really on my sleeve today and I can't hold them back however they decide to come out.

I don't know what I'm looking for here. I don't know what I need. Maybe I just want to know I'm not alone...