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Feb 18, 2013, 11:15 AM
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Member Since: Dec 2012
Location: California
Posts: 2,248
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Originally Posted by Paige008
I know that my mom has a mental illness and that she is sick, but I didn't know that I was on that same level of 'sick'. One of the scariest things for me is that I will end up like my mother. It truly terrifies me for my future. My T knows that. I took it as, according to her, I am already my mother, so, yes, that is definitely a trigger or sore subject or whatever you want to call it.
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oh my. If I thought that I was on the same level as my mother-with-a-mental-illness, I would find the scary too. And if I was afraid of losing myself and becoming someone else, I would find that scary too. Particularly if it was someone who I was dependent on, and was dependent on me. Is it like that?
Particularly if I had been working hard, and using my resources to do better. And being afraid of that, I would be very afraid that was what she meant. I have a friend with a mom with a serious case of bi-polar, as well as a daughter. I know she is pretty scared and works very hard to not be like that. It's part of her day in ways that I haven't experienced.
I wonder what you mean by levels. I'm having a hard time understanding what you mean. I presume you don't mean you are exactly like your mom, as two people rarely are, not even moms-daughters, or even "identical" twins. I have a sense of what you mean - or rather a sense of what I would mean if I described myself like that - but I'm not sure I'm accurate. I would think it meant I was weak, and I would struggle because part of me would feel very weak, and part of me would feel very strong from all the work and understanding I had put into dealing with the situation. So I would very confused. What does it mean to you?
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