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Originally Posted by Syra
I wonder what you mean by levels. I'm having a hard time understanding what you mean. I presume you don't mean you are exactly like your mom, as two people rarely are, not even moms-daughters, or even "identical" twins. I have a sense of what you mean - or rather a sense of what I would mean if I described myself like that - but I'm not sure I'm accurate. I would think it meant I was weak, and I would struggle because part of me would feel very weak, and part of me would feel very strong from all the work and understanding I had put into dealing with the situation. So I would very confused. What does it mean to you?
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I guess what I mean is that my mom's mental illness is severe and debilitating. She tries to take everyone down with her. She doesn't have relationships, she doesn't work, everything is someone else's fault, and she routinely talks about wanting to die and hating the world.
I have my own issues, for sure, but I don't see myself as 'severe'. Am I headed to severe? Maybe, but, for now, I am managing, or I thought I was.
I guess I saw it like my mom is a Level 5 and I am a Level 2. Does that make better sense? I'm not sure if I'm explaining myself well...