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Feb 18, 2013, 12:39 PM
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Member Since: Dec 2012
Location: California
Posts: 2,248
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Quote:
Originally Posted by Paige008
I guess what I mean is that my mom's mental illness is severe and debilitating. She tries to take everyone down with her. She doesn't have relationships, she doesn't work, everything is someone else's fault, and she routinely talks about wanting to die and hating the world.
I have my own issues, for sure, but I don't see myself as 'severe'. Am I headed to severe? Maybe, but, for now, I am managing, or I thought I was.
I guess I saw it like my mom is a Level 5 and I am a Level 2. Does that make better sense? I'm not sure if I'm explaining myself well...
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I think I understand. Is it like: You realize you have issues, and you are working on your issues. You figure that you are somehow about a Level 2. Not where you want to be, but functional and able to work on getting better, and in the upper half. You view your mother functioning much below you and not very functional. And what your T said felt to you like she thought you were a level 5, with your mother, because your mother was dragging you down. And maybe because you were letting her drag you down? Is that what you felt she was saying?
I can understand feeling like that. And I can understanding hearing your T that way.
I hear that you have a strength in your self, and a sense of yourself, to know you can't be pigeonholed, and you can't be pigeonholed there. I hear an acceptance of your issues, and working through what is happening. That isn't sounding like your description of your mother.
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