Something happened with work, and I'm so angry right now. My family member I work with is driving me so insane that I want to quit. But I've poured my life into this business, I work so hard, I worked all weekend on numbers and accounting and taxes and crap. I make less money than my managers who work for me, I had to put my kids on free lunch program, I'm the one who takes the hit when we have trouble with the economy, etc. I cashed out my life savings to invest in my business. My family member I work with cashed out hers and travelled to Europe. She'll ask me, why do you have to be such a martry? And I don't know why, maybe because I'm trying to save my life's work and support my family. I'm so offended when she says that, I'm not trying to be the martyr! I'm trying to run a fricking business, trying to stay in business, grow business in a nasty dog eat dog corporate world out there. I'm troubled, yes, very, I have troubled children, I have missed many days of work last year when my son was hospitalized about 10 times and I tried to never miss a visiting hour at facilities sometimes 3+ hours away. So she's dx bp also... she's more the *****y impulsive go-getter great at talking and presentation one in the spotlight, and I'm the boring quiet logical practical often depressed one. It is sometimes a great combo, we have accomplished much. When we're on, we're on fire, and it is awesome. But when she called me this morning with first thing yelling negativity at me, I snapped. She said, F-you! And I yelled back I'm hanging up, will talk to you when you can calm down. She'd already hung up on me. Now I'm ignoring her incessant calls, can't deal right now.

I know she's just having a crappy time right now, but she's taking it out on someone who's on her side, and someone who can't take a beating today. People get *****y with me, I shut them out.