Honestly, the past few days I have been struggling. Friday night I vacummed the Kitchen and downstairs bathroom, the two rooms that take a beating because I track in alot of dirt from being out doing the barn work so much.

My husband was around alot and he began to clean around me and while I appreciate it, what I don't like is how he has a way of not seeing that I "do" work at it too. I just have to work around my constant struggle with the PTSD and some days I am not so good at it. I have felt a bit overwhelmed since the big storm because there is too much snow to put the horses/ponies out and too much for me to shovel out the paddocks. It also took me a while to recover from all the shoveling that I did do, as I was very "body sore". Yesterday was "very windy" and cold and I didn't even want to go out in it and do my chores.

On Mondays I am always tired because when he is around I just feel how much he wants me to be something I can't be anymore, I am not the old me and he tends to get short tempered with me, always did, but now it is not so easily overlooked.