What cough syrup are you taking? Make sure it doesn't have alcohol in it--that's a bad combo with meds. Getting over emotional may mean hypomania--has your pdoc reviewed your meds & levels recently?
Dear, dear (((((dark_heart_x))))). I'm so sorry for all the sorrow that exhausts you. Could you let it all go for awhile? Forget what other people think? Forget your past? Take a fresh look around at today, make up a new character to be for a week, maybe you had a childhood dream to be a fashion designer ... Live in the Land of Pretend for a mental vacation and be someone else. We give our physical selves vacations--might do our mental selves some good too.
roadie