Most people have at least one thing that they will go to great lengths to protect. Emotional pain can be just as if not more devestating than physical illness. There are doors that you keep locked because opening them would be dangerous to you. That is one reason why therapy can take so long. There has to be no doubt in your mind that the therapist is trustworthy.

Once you say something, you can't take it back. If what is behind the door is threatening enough, no price is too great to pay to protect your emotional mind.

You are right, starting over with another therapist is a huge stress. Especially if you had just started to trust them. No one here is going to try and make you talk about something that you don't want to. I'm sure we all have those locked doors. Finding someone you can trust is crucial to your recovery. Remember, you control the therapy session. You can choose to talk or not or quit if you want to. We will all be here to support you as much as we can.

Sam2