Another thing is I am lost in pain. I am not getting my responsibilities met this week. Even this week, when I went to another support group (there were mean people there making me discouraged-not litterally but they picked topics while I was in the restroom that were really offensive to read, such as "the family afterwards," when most know I have been giving Lar plenty of space and not stalking him or phoning him, after his being in the hospital. I feel like they do witchcraft if they can towards me. Such as they side with him and turn on me so to speak. I am just as fragile as he. He paints up better pity stories. I have to stay away from the whole scene. I am just spinning my gears though-sleeping too much, smoking too much not being around anyone, but the teens, and hiding and beating myself up, even though I know I didn't do anything really wrong. I need just as much support and don't feel like I get much support.