im only a new member here but i really need to write this to get it out of my system and i dont have anyone to talk to. and hopefully some people will be able to help me. im just really down and have been for a long time.i have identified some of the things that are really getting to me. first thing is that i havent seen my doc in 4months and that was even while i was in hospital. i never even heard from him and yet he discharged me while i was at a really bad stage and now im even worse. i really dont know what to do. my dad has phoned 3 of my docs and they didnt reply and that was 3 weeks ago. so hes pretty annoyed at this stage. so he tried to set me up with a local doc but we havent heard from him either. so iv got no docs to talk to but i guess it would make no difference because none of them listen or care anyway and also i was set to go on CBT but when i went to see the therapist she said i was too depressed to go on with it and to wait untill i got better to go back to her. another thing getting to me are the voices that i have been hearing for the past few years. they are getting a lot worse lately. and the seeing things has definitely gotten a lot worse. im just really sick of all this. i have no energy, i cant sleep, i havent spoken to anyone other than my brother in about 4 months and i cant talk to him about this kinda stuff coz i think it would really upset him and hes just too young. i havent really done anything the past 4 months other than lye in bed. the only thing i have done is go on this site which i guess is something.
i just found out that i will be seeing my doc on the 24th. bt i think thats too long to wait. i dont know if i can wait that long. i just dont know what to do. i would love if somebody could give me some advice on how to cope with this. i would really appreciate it. sorry for the long post.

eoghan