he must hate me now. but thats okay, i hate me now too. he keeps asking, what makes you think you'd never do this again. i know that he's hurt right now, in a way that i couldnt possibly understand but, im hurt too, and he doesnt understand that either. why would i be so hurt right now if i didnt care about him. does that make sense? i dont even know why im even bothering, he probably wont ever talk to me again, and i could understand that but i'd never be able to accept it.